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Name: Lew
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 8/31/1983
Gender: Male


Interests: Finding a way to rob the world of all its money and destroying their preconstructed stance on reality
Expertise: Fucking up positive attitudes, poisoning minds, suffocating all chances of hope, and cooking up one mean bowl of ramen.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit


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Member Since: 2/17/2003

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Currently Listening
Guerilla City
By Guerilla Black

see related
- You're the One


No room and no internet make LewBear go something something.
Go crazy?
Don't mind if I do.

Living like a hobo going from couch to couch has been interesting to say the least.  However, I do miss  the comfort and convenience of having a permanent residence.  I'm gonna have a place again come August 1.  It seems like a long ass time from now but good times with SPOP have been making things go by faster.  Despite the nightly problem of where the fuck am I gonna sleep tonight, this summer has been the most relaxing.  I got a job that pays a decent wage ($8.25 / hr) and doesn't require much labor ( Target security. I stand around all day and look at girls), I'm getting to know people that I hardly knew before, and have been partying or chillin damn near every night.


Tuesday, June 28, 2005

The moments in life where all your problems go away and you completely get lost in the moment are very rare and will be forever cherished.  Even harder to come by is the moment where the potential that the future holds is so bright and overwhelming that the people who stand beside you become your brothers and sisters and that moment will forever bond you and your commrades.  Now imagine these moments not being for a split second or even a few hours, but an entire weekend.  That was what weekend training for SPOP was like for me.  It gave me a feeling that can only be compared to when I went through SPOP 4 years ago.  Back then, it was a reassuring feeling that UCI would be my home and there would be people who I can relate that wonderful weekend to.  This time, however, it was a feeling that the hundred or so other people who I will be staffing with will provide me a summer full of experiences that will last a lifetime and the bonds that will be formed will enhance and bring life to what I saw as a dead 5th year where my only concern would be finishing school and guiding a batch of pledges.  For those of you who will be staffing with me, thank you for bringing life back to my dying passion for college life.

I won't write about what happened during the weekend.  That weekend is for only us staffers to share, laugh about, reflect on, and devilishly grin upon.  Instead, here's a few simple words that will bring memories to staffers and confusion to my other readers and pictures that will tell a story, but not THE story.  For those outside of SPOP, try to deal with it cause you have just lost me for the summer.

-chicken BREASTS
-ice cream *ahem*
-mayo
-"Don't fuck it up."
-crazy touchdown
-car rally video
-Tracy's jumping jacks
-we need a raging alcoholic to answer this question.
-looking around the corner
-MC Holla Hara
-ass clap
-rock garden
-RED ROVER
-physical sciences to humanities sprint
-diggity dip
-we are number 1, number 1, number 1
-golf cart riot
-jigalow
-ghost
-GRAY YEAR







F-BOMBS!




GRAY YEAR!


I start staffing this Friday for mini SPOP 1.  I can't wait until I staff for a weekend SPOP.


Monday, June 20, 2005

Currently Listening
Street Songs (20th Anniversary Deluxe Edition)
By Rick James

see related
- Ghetto Life


Well, the school year is finally over and it's about damn time that I addressed fixing up the shambles which I refer to as my life.  Good news, I survived taking 20 units.  Bad news, I am now officially a 5th year.  Somehow I feel that I have failed myself and my parents by not graduating in 4.  A lot of people that I know are moving on with their lives and I feel that I should be in the same situation as them.  With all the problems that I'm having right now, I guess that it is better off that I will be around for another year.  However, running away from my problems and postponing the inevitable isn't something that I tend nor want to do.  Nothing is going to be easy from here on.  Inspiration is in short supply and I'm in the hole. 

Just to bring the mood up, congrats to the graduating seniors and happy burfday to everyone who's got one around now (there's a shitload of you fools).  Now here's some pics of shit to appease you rotten bastards who only visit my site for the pics.  May you go blind from the radiation that emits from your computer screen. 


one of the many nights spent studying at the commons


graduation pics




Chris Tran's 21st



Phil "Fists of Fury" Fang throwing up the double fist


Kelli on the 1s and 2s



We're missing a big bro, lil sis, pledge bro and pledge sis.
IT'S TEAM NEGLECTED!  Drinking without those who we should be drinking with.
Cheers!


My not my lil sis and her cigarette box pyramid


Chris yaking in the sink.  Happy 21st.  Hopefully you'll remember this moment.


Kristine and Brandy being gangsta




Me and Thomas Ko fucked up.  I wish we could do this more often.


Until next time, make someone happy and give em head.
I'm out.

-LewBear


Saturday, June 11, 2005

10th week and finals week.  The most dreaded time for most college students.  My 10th week was straight up papers, 2 to be exact.  One 15 page paper and one 10 page paper.  That shit was a bitch to do.  I basically went 3 nights with 5 hours of sleep and a couple of naps when I just couldn't take it anymore.  That was just 10th week.  I've still got 4 finals to take this coming week.  One of them being on friday, so no finals party...well maybe I'll stop by for half an hour or so.

Commons at 6am, a sight only procrastinators see on finals week.


I needed an energy drink so I went to the closest place, Cornerstone.  Open 24/7, MY ASS!  I drove to fucking Rite Aid for my energy fix.


3 Sobe No Fears in one night, 2 papers to do, and 1 stressed out LewBear


SPOP is fucking ill.  I'm glad I have SPOP to keep me sane and happy through this stressful quarter.  Here's some pics from the mixer between F-Bombs (My discussion group and the best one in SPOP) and ROC (the coolest discussion group, 2nd only to F-Bombs).






My roommate / pledge bro, Chris "the motherfucking king of the town" Chan's  senior art exhibt was last night.  In classic A/\ style, we threw a kegger to celebrate afterwards.  Hopefully you were there to partake in our generosity of a keg.  If you have one at your house, Chris and I will gladly celebrate with you. 

Chris's art on display in the university art gallery.  This is the only art related pic of that night that I have.  A beer to who anyone who knows where the pic of a chick licking a strap on is.  And no, you don't get one if I already told you.


My filipino lil sis khristine.  I dunno how I became her kuya but I guess that's my title now.


A/\!  It's a celebration, bitches.


So, who's the wiseass that decided to have the windows open while there's a loud ass party inside the house.  30 day?  FUCK THAT.  The keg isn't killed yet and we'll close the windows this time.  Party on!


My lil sis concurs


Drunk munchies with the "lil ho"


Aww shit.  The cops came back.


2 30 day notices = fine/$$$ (dunno how much it'll cost. it'll come in the mail.)


at least the keg got killed



Since it was an art party, this is a tribute to my pledge bro.  I think black and white pics look artsy.  I call it, "waking up to reality".  Cause when you think about it, you've given what you have to the community keg, which gets taxed by fools u didn't pay.  And all you have at the end is an empty keg, keg ice water with cigarette butts, and the deposit money.  Cheers to art.



....and this pic is just to humiliate Ali


Saturday, June 04, 2005

Currently Playing
Haunted Cities
By Transplants
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- Gangsters and Thugs - -


Lewbear has returned from the xanga dead and it can be attributed to me finally purchasing a digital camera.  Cause who wants to read carefully thought out and meaningful words when they can just look at the pictures?

the box, after I ravaged through its contents

Chris's latest artwork

Being a picture whore and taking pics of my desk for no apparent reason.